I pushed open the bathroom stall door and discovered on the toilet
there a man who looked like Alex Trebek taking a shit. His gaze was locked in
the thousand-yard stare—like he was seeing an invisible atrocity unfold in the
distance but feeling nothing. A serious shitter. He did not maneuver his
eyeballs to see who it was that walked in on his most intimate moment.
A normal man—and he was not one—would have
flinched, made a motion, feigned a gesture in a futile attempt to regain
agency. Would not a normal man look at the beast moving in on him, threatening
the boundaries of his dignity? Amazing. He blocked me mentally; but I knew—and
I think he knew—we were the same man.